Post of the Day #36


How My Brain Works

I’ve been having issues with mental habits for the past few weeks. Since going back to work after a stint on Sick Leave, I’ve been having difficulties writing. I’ve enjoyed being back at work, mainly because I hate being stuck and unable to do anything.

But, since being back at work my mental habits have had a slump. I’m not unhappy, my depression isn’t causing issues.

My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder on the other hand… Has been an absolute nightmare.

Last week I didn’t have to be at work until 9 AM. Meaning, I could sleep in until 7:30 AM if I wanted to… But my brain went…

LET’S WAKE UP AT 6:30 AM INSTEAD!

I went to work at 8 AM every morning, and had my breakfast there. Because there was nothing for me to do so early in the morning, and I didn’t feel like writing.

And on top of the schedule being forced into my school hours all over again… The light switch has become my arch-nemesis.

If you’ve ever watched a show called Whitechapel, you’ll be familiar with Joseph Chandler. He’s a DI with severe OCD and he goes through an issue in Season 2 where he has a panic attack that causes him to flick his light switch… Constantly.

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And I have exactly the same issue. I’ve broken light cords and switches because I’ve been unable to stop myself from doing it…

One of these days, I may actually be able to control my urge to mess with light switches.

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