I’ve been having issues with mental habits for the past few weeks. Since going back to work after a stint on Sick Leave, I’ve been having difficulties writing. I’ve enjoyed being back at work, mainly because I hate being stuck and unable to do anything.
But, since being back at work my mental habits have had a slump. I’m not unhappy, my depression isn’t causing issues.
My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder on the other hand… Has been an absolute nightmare.
Last week I didn’t have to be at work until 9 AM. Meaning, I could sleep in until 7:30 AM if I wanted to… But my brain went…
LET’S WAKE UP AT 6:30 AM INSTEAD!
I went to work at 8 AM every morning, and had my breakfast there. Because there was nothing for me to do so early in the morning, and I didn’t feel like writing.
And on top of the schedule being forced into my school hours all over again… The light switch has become my arch-nemesis.
If you’ve ever watched a show called Whitechapel, you’ll be familiar with Joseph Chandler. He’s a DI with severe OCD and he goes through an issue in Season 2 where he has a panic attack that causes him to flick his light switch… Constantly.
And I have exactly the same issue. I’ve broken light cords and switches because I’ve been unable to stop myself from doing it…
One of these days, I may actually be able to control my urge to mess with light switches.